.Thursday, April 09, 2009 ' 5:47 PM Y
【昔の輝きに潰されそうな、今の私。だけど、昔の輝きも嘘ばっかりだった。】
i have always wanted to blog recently...finaly today i had the chance.
today is really a fustrating day.
i have screwed up everything today.
in the morning. i screwed the SYF preview.
i sucked. my 母亲 was out of beat.again.
i'm really really very scared that this will happen during the actual thing.
THEN PRACTICE LAR!
yes. i have been practicing but seems it isn't enough...
seeing their disappointed face make me so guilty..
somemore band didn't get the ideal result.which *cough cough* made someone very unhappy.
i saw her black-face during SYF preview today.
&she should be thinking:co has failed too.
but can't they just give less pressure on performing arts?
seeing band practice so hard....& yet some of the things can't be achieved regardless of how much effort you put in...
co is really in danger. it was long long ago.
but some people just don't care.seriously, how do they develop such an attitude? it's really amazing. i don't think i can ever achieve that.
i was damn depressed...i have been...& so are my friends who care for co.
is my practice not enough? how come the more i try, the more the disappointing the result will be...
immediately after that was math test.
oh crap. i over-estimated my ability.
i got stucked somewhere because at a moment my mind was blank. & there was only few minutes left to check the answer.
in which i spotted an error but didn't have enough time to figure out...aaargh!
after recess was chemistry test.
this was a nightmare. how come our class always gets the more difficult paper?
i screwed it up just like math. hahahaha. my head really ached after that.
&followed by physics lesson. which is when my head really exploded.
why are we learning all these things! why did i take physics in the first place!!
acceleration? oh my god.
half of it i didn't understand.
i think i'm gonna fail this. & ms cheung said the next topic will be harder than kinematics....hahaha! i dug my own grave. maybe the grave wasn't big enough
& so it's my very very lucky day
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