.Saturday, February 28, 2009 ' 6:48 PM Y
【昔の輝きに潰されそうな、今の私。だけど、昔の輝きも嘘ばっかりだった。】
just remembered something that has happened today.
on the way back home from west coast plaze, me and my mother was walking along a way.
suddenly,my mother was stunned :" is that money on the floor?"
sure enough,i was almost stepping on the money.
five dollars lie on the ground, in few cm distance, are ten dollar notes, and another few cm, a bundle of fifty dollar notes.
OMG!
it's the first time in my life that i have seen so much money lying on the floor so helplessly(?).
i rarely encounter the situation where lost money is on the floor.
& this time if my mother never pointed it out, i think i'll walk right thorough the hundreds of dollars without noticing, maybe even stepping on them.
and so my mother asked people passing by if this money belonged to them.
soon, an aunty who is going to cross the road and few old uncles gathered around.
i wasn't sure what the aunty has said, but she went down to pick up the money, from the bundle of fifty dollars, then the ten dollar notes.
she missed the five dollar notes as an uncle was coming to it.
then, to our surprise she was going to leave with the money.
my mother then said the money should be delivered to the police station.
but the aunty did not seem to have the intention to do that.
i even saw her doing an action which she was giong to open her bag to put the money.
my expression was o.o
the aunty was going to cross the road, wihtout saying anything to us.
the uncle was like:"她拿走了咯！"
huh! she dare to take so much money meh!
anyway i also don't think the old uncles had the intention to deliver the money to police station also. he sounded like he wished to have the money too....
&so, me and my mother left the place. as we have no choice.
later my mother said how much she had regretted not picking up the money and take them to police station.she said the person who lost the money must be feeling awful and it's morally wrong to pocket other people's money.
i felt as bad as her.
if i knew my mother had the intention to make a trip to police station, i would have snatched the money from that sneaky old woman!
ok..maybe not snatch.
but will confront her and ask her to return the money.i'm not scared of arguing with her.&i actually wanted to insult people(morally wrong too).
haiz....i just lost an opportunity to do good things! damn it!
and i failed to stop this person from taking away something that doesn't belong to her.
but also cannot blame me for not acting...i'm kinda scared of this situation cause i have this superstitious belief that this kind of money will bring bad luck```after all, it doesn't belong to you!
now what i can do is only to curse this shameless person who dared to take such a big sum of money under the eye of so many people
<❤ MIKAN - 你才是鸟人···>
.Wednesday, February 25, 2009 ' 8:51 PM Y
【昔の輝きに潰されそうな、今の私。だけど、昔の輝きも嘘ばっかりだった。】
忘れたいのに、何で何時も何時もあの人の事を噂に聞き、どっかで見かけるの？
自分に物じゃないのに、自分に相応しくないのに、望みたくないのに・・・
忘れたいのに、何故忘れないの？
こんなにうじうじ悩む自分が嫌い。こんなに浅い自分が嫌い。て言うかキモイ。
違う世界の人だってわかってる。あんなタイプ本当は嫌いって解ってる。
でも、なんでこんなに胸が苦しいの？なんでこんなに乗り越えないの？
私って本当にバカ。何が起ってるのも知らず、自分に変な勘違いして、何だか期待して・・・
過去に生きてる自分が本当にムカツク
p.s today's performance during assembly rock-ed!
トトロ was so damn nice!!!omg! 宫崎骏's movies & their music are genius!omg!
and the uncle was so funny. he has a great voice though, and really sung the song in very traditional japanese way. proving that he is professional!
but the women's singing...no comment.....(-/-)
<❤ MIKAN - 你才是鸟人···>
.Tuesday, February 24, 2009 ' 9:43 PM Y
【昔の輝きに潰されそうな、今の私。だけど、昔の輝きも嘘ばっかりだった。】
today lammy didn't come to co practise```sad T_T
it's another tiring school day...as what i experience everytime.
today the only lucky thing that has happened is that we don't have to do the oral presentation on thursday! yay! so at least don't have to chiong the powerpoint in these days while i desperately need to revise for bio.
i see a lot of my other class friends showing off that today marks the end of suffering since all their tests are done.
we still have to wait till monday....
i'm not sure if i can survive the bio test...i'ts killer! but luckily the 3rd topic is not tested at all. otherwise we'll all die.really.
though i know i should be revising..but my brain refuse to work, and i just want to distract myself of all the bio terms by idling online...despite the homework that are still not completed.
i swear after exam & SYF is over, i'm going to relax and play until crazy.
though it might have to be after mid year..haha
did we do anything to you that you have to behave like this? i think you owe us an explanation
<❤ MIKAN - 你才是鸟人···>
.Sunday, February 22, 2009 ' 8:14 PM Y
【昔の輝きに潰されそうな、今の私。だけど、昔の輝きも嘘ばっかりだった。】
i seriously think that i'm having a life that isn't exactly a LIFE.
i cannot feel that i'm alive. despite the fact that my blog is..hoho!
this is another weekend of CO, do homework and chiong last minute revision for coming exams.
i feel sleepy all the time..& i feel like screaming my head off (though i won't want to be headless).
WHY IS MY LIFE LIKE THIS?
WHAT HAS LED TO THIS MISERABLE SITUATION?
& the worst part is that i still have tons of things to do besdies study.
stress huh?
for me personally, most of the stress doesn't seem to come from studies.
if my life is made up of only homework, revision, etc... it won't be this miserable.
i can only blame my killer schedule to SYF...um,sorry.
though i start to enjoy CO more and more, & my love for pipa is grwoing...i still cannot tolerate the fact that my precious saturday for sleeping is taken away by CO.
my whole saturday is practially ruined because i wake up early for CO.which makes me sleepy for the whole day & thus cannot revise effectively.
but still, i won't skip CO. because i know it is not the right thing to do. & i would blame myself like hell if i became the 害群之马 during SYF.
actually, i know many people have even busier schedule.....but for a lazy person like me, it's very hard to keep up with a routine that has so few breaks for me to play computer or do photoshop...hopefully,by the end of SYF, everything will get better.
p.s RAWRRR!MATH TEST TOMORROW! how am i going to accept it if i failed my first math exam for this year?(erm, the surprise test last time is not counted)
<❤ MIKAN - 你才是鸟人···>
.Saturday, February 21, 2009 ' 11:02 PM Y
【昔の輝きに潰されそうな、今の私。だけど、昔の輝きも嘘ばっかりだった。】
After many years of struggle (?), i finally decided that my blog should be alive again.
so,i'll try my best not to make the same mistake again as i did for many times when i also said the same thing...
but it's okay. even if it's dead, it won't be so soon this time.
because i had a big depression...so will try to keep this alive..aiming at least to post 2times a month! hoho! LIAN YING jiayou!!
p.s even if my blog is alive, i'm dead in person
<❤ MIKAN - 你才是鸟人···>
