.Monday, April 20, 2009 ' 8:49 PM Y
【昔の輝きに潰されそうな、今の私。だけど、昔の輝きも嘘ばっかりだった。】
YES.today is SYF.
the day we've been waiting for so long.
the event that we've been preparing since we stepped into CO.
i cannot say we did our best today. i cannot say we deserve gold with honours.
but what saddend all of us is not mainly our result.it's THEIR RESULT.
i can't belive and i can't accept. how can they? is that the music that is up to standard?
i know people have different tastes. but when 5 people have the same taste that is different from all 80 people, i start to doubt.
i know like what mr lum has said, if we lose, we shouldn't cry. we should let it go and congratulate the winner.
but seriously. i cannot accept. it's so hard to let it go.
maybe we shouldn't blame them and just accept the fact that we didn't do our best. i was not into the music. maybe i was too careful. or maybe because what i hear is very soft around us.
anyway, it's over. & we can't change the fact.
but i won't regret participating in SYF.because even though we didn't get the best result, we tried our best, and i can feel whole CO improving, bonding, uniting....
&i realise how lucky i am to be in my section, with such caring and loving seniors & juniors....people like me rarely feel a sense of belonging to something. if i like it, i really do. & i really really love my section.
i almost cried during the section talk before SYF, but decided to save my tears on stage and after the performance.
in the end, i didn't have the chance.....
nvm co! don't be sad and depressed! just think that 他们没有眼光.
& 十年后我们又是一条好汉！（ok maybe not 10 years but 2 years)
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